So here I am.  Real Life Write Now.

“Real” because it will be real, take it or leave it. Sometimes deep. Sometimes surface level. You may agree, you may not. You may be inspired, ticked off, or bored. Maybe it will resonate, maybe it will repel. You may (likely) think it’s just stupid ramblings – which I fully admit up front that it is! And I guarantee that after every post I will second guess myself a thousand times for putting it out there. And that’s ok. I may need to share it, such as it is, but you don’t have to follow or read it. Lol 

“Life” because it will simply be about life. The beauty and joy. The pain and sorrow. And everything in between.

“Write Now” because it will just be me writing, right now, whatever is on my mind at the moment. I may write every day, I may not write for weeks in between. I don’t know. But when it hits, this will be a place to just let it out and be real. 

So, here we go. 

I love writing. But I’m scared. I haven’t written on purpose in a long time, and I’m scared I can’t get my thoughts together anymore. I’m scared it won’t matter and will be a waste of time. I’m scared of rejection because my perspectives are usually a little – sometimes a lot – off; outside the box, and maybe a little too blunt for most folks. 

A lot of times my writing is processing, and honestly sometimes I process one direction, and then process more in a different direction. That’s how my mind works. It tries to cover all the bases in search of the best conclusion. It’s confusing to anyone but me. So why do this? Why would I do this on a public forum?I don’t know. I guess my “circle” has just become so small in the last several months that I need somewhere to unload, unpack, and think “out loud” for a while or I’m going to burst. Lord knows, my husband has had his fair share as I’ve unpacked most of it all on him! So, maybe this will at least give his bleeding ears a bit of a break! – Though he would never complain about it.  

I won’t feel too terribly bad unloading or processing here, because you have a choice. You can “listen” – or not. Lol